Flyin' High

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When I’m standing on the ground, my hometown is pretty magnificent. Surrounded by farms and ranches, Tomales is a tiny town on the coast of Northern California, a juicy slice of West Sonoma-Marin Heaven and deeply dependent on the economic bounties (and sharply impacted by the inevitable bounces) of agriculture, fishing, and tourism. While I live in the middle of town, I'm still surrounded by the billowy hills and lively vapors from nearby pastures. The quiet calm of my neighborhood awakens the soul. But from the air, it is far beyond breathtaking!

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Catching Icarus

Photo Credit: Deborah Parrish

Photo Credit: Deborah Parrish

Icarus flew too close to the sun and fell into the sea when his waxed wings melted. Overcome by the freedom that flying afforded him, Icarus soared through the sky like a bird, but the heat of the sun melted the wax and the feathers fell away. He fluttered his naked wings to no avail and as he realized he was only flapping his bare arms, Icarus fell into the sea.

I’ve been feeling a lot like Icarus in the past couple of days as we returned home from our wonderful vacation. Stories swirl about people who’ve found their way into that special place of timelessness, and upon their return, the speed of time sweeps them off their feet and they fall into an abyss.

Our days aboard the Portland Rose brought many magical moments that I will treasure forever, but coming back down to earth, clocking into the time stream of normal life, I was caught by surprise. I’ve been struggling with waves of shocking news received when we touched down, overwhelming loss of life and, less importantly, the loss of the job that I waited for so patiently.

In the face of unspeakable events as we travelled closer to our destination, only a few short hours before we were to disembark from our train trip and go back to our lives, a car was struck on the tracks. Tragic, yes, horrible, yes. But, in the midst, there was a deep generosity that began with a ukulele player named Mar, who, before she began her song, pulled out a $100 bill, threw it on the floor in front of her and asked for us to join her in giving money to a woman we didn’t know. While she sang her sweet song, smiling as she played, people began to bring money up to the front. I’m told there was more than $1800 gathered in a short time to be given to the family of the people who were killed. Could that money take away their loss, their pain? No, not even a little bit, but could it help? Absolutely. And it warmed my heart to witness such an act. We were strangers to the woman who lost her family that afternoon in the broccoli field. But we knew grief, and we knew that she might never know about the people on the back of that train who witnessed her family being shattered in front of her. We couldn’t give her back her husband and child, but we could give her something, what little we had, even if it was by some comparisons only a small piece of what she needed. The miracle was that people who didn’t even know her cared enough to reach down into their pockets and give what they could.

I wish that had been the end of the news. But we were in for more. In our neighboring town of Petaluma, only days before, a man shot his wife in front of her divorce attorney, on the street. And yesterday as we were heading home, a young man, an acquaintance and a close friend of our own close friends, a local business owner considered a pillar of our community had a sudden heart attack and died.

I can’t bear to tell all the details of these stories here. It’s too raw, too hard to handle. But they are present and a foggy sadness has set in.

Today I received some bad news. A job that I’d been waiting for, had been promised, did not come to fruition. I was sad, I was mad, I was afraid and yet, I realized it was just a job, just a measly job. It was not my life, or the life of my loved ones. It’s all about perspective. I can’t allow myself to wallow in this mire of sadness and feel sorry for myself. There are other people around me who are dealing with the most difficult of circumstances, and I’ve only lost the possibility of a job.

Lingering questions about the elusive job: What did I do wrong? Should I have let go earlier? When is it appropriate to have faith in a “process?” The rug ripped out from under me, my little world quivers with uncertainty. In the scheme of things, given what my friends are facing now with these many tragic losses in my immediate community, I have pondered deeply what to write about with a deep appreciation for how people cope with the darkness of life. We all have it, the challenges that life delivers, and yet, there are silver linings everywhere…

For now, I want to focus not on the tragedies, but on the bright light of generosity and outpouring of love when things go wrong. Tonight, a dear friend posted this, “What would I do without my family and friends?” My answer was, “You wouldn’t….”

What if I didn’t have my loved ones to reach out to when things got hard, when things go wrong? What if I was all alone in this messy thing called life? As I was pacing in my room after receiving yet another spate of bad news, I reached for the phone and made a call. One of my dearest friends answered the call and walked with me in the dark. Sometimes we all need a hand in the darkness.

For me this is the greatest gift of all…the gift of love, generosity, and caring that comes only from a friend, or even a stranger, who knows the silence and despair of darkness. It doesn’t matter what brought you there, but you’re there, and your friend’s voice, touch, presence lets you know you’re not alone.

Tonight I’m most grateful for the arms that hold me, the voices that comfort me, the hearts that love me. Tonight…I’m not alone and I know that the words, “it will all be okay” mean something. Because it will all be okay. It won’t be the same, but it will be okay on the other side.

The First Meatloaf I've Ever Made

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Magic Meatloaf

Sometimes slow food is easy food...

I've never made meatloaf before. I know, that's amazing. My hubby recently disclosed that this was one of his favorite meals from childhood, "one of the few things" his mom cooked that he liked. Together, we experimented, uncovered several recipes and created this one. It was tender, juicy, held together nicely, and extremely tasty. It was easy, fun, and delicious. Now, I'm a huge fan!

This recipe can be adjusted by substituting canola oil for the butter, adding seasoned ground turkey instead of pork, adding celery, corn, or shredded carrots to the onion mixture (lightly cooking before adding to the 'loaf). Consistency and cooking time are the keys to success.

Late last night I caught him having a midnight snack, slicing off a bit of the 'loaf to nibble. Must've been a success!

Prep Time: 15 Min Cook Time: 1 Hr 10 Min Ready In: 1 Hr 25 Min Recipe Yield 12 servings

Ingredients

  • 1 tablespoon butter
  • 1/4 cup minced onion
  • 2 cloves garlic, minced
  • 1 1/2 teaspoons salt
  • 1 1/2 teaspoons freshly ground black pepper
  • 1 pound extra-lean ground beef
  • 1 pound Italian seasoned pork sausage
  • 3 slices wheat bread, toasted and crumbled
  • 7 buttery round crackers, crushed
  • 2 eggs, lightly beaten
  • 2 tablespoons Straus Plain Whole Milk yogurt
  • 1 1/2 tablespoons Worcestershire sauce
  • 1 (15 ounce) can tomato sauce, divided in half ( you will use the other half at the end)
  • 3 tablespoons BBQ sauce
  • 3 tablespoons ketchup

Directions

1. Preheat oven to 350 degrees F (175 degrees C).

2. Melt the butter in a skillet over medium heat, and cook the onion and garlic 5 minutes, until onion is tender. Remove from heat, season with salt and pepper.

3. In a large bowl, mix the onion and garlic, meat, crumbled bread, crushed crackers, eggs, yogurt, Worcestershire sauce, and 1/2 can tomato sauce. Gradually stir in the liquid ingredients until mixture is moist, but not soggy. Transfer the mixture to a loaf pan.

4. Bake uncovered in the preheated oven for 40 minutes. Increase oven temperature to 400 degrees F (200 degrees C), and continue baking 15 minutes, to an internal temperature of 160 degrees F (70 degrees C).

5. In a small bowl, mix the remaining tomato sauce and ketchup. Brush over the top of the meatloaf to make a glaze, and continue baking an extra 10 minutes. Once removed from the oven, let stand for 5 minutes.

Club Secrets

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Deep within all orphans, there is a quiet longing that never fades. We never get over the loss of a parent, no matter how old we may be, or how sick they may be. This is the great secret of the club. The grief just burrows deep within us, but it never leaves. I want to tell my friend that the love from our fathers never leaves us, they transition to something more powerful, more accessible. But, the grief is buried underneath our Everyday Face.

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"Frosty"

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Today I met 7-year-old Naomi, the daughter of My Music Man’s old high school buddy.  She was delightful and quickly brought out my inner little girl.  As we chatted about the snow on the ground here in Iowa, I told her that I very much wanted to create a snowman and she volunteered to be my “partner-in-crime.” Last night, while we were sleeping, a steady snow fell and over 4 inches accumulated overnight.  I am told this is only an average.  Some places got more, some less.  I am sure we got more.  The snow was beautiful, very fluffy, and piled up everywhere.   There was so much snow, the snowplows were working around the clock.  I can’t imagine how tired they must be of this cold powder called “snow.”  For the last 24 hours I have seen more snowplows, John Deere tractors with attachments, and little “mini plows” than I’ve seen regular cars.

And I've learned something I never knew  - not all snow is created equal.  Snow has certain properties, depending on the outside temperature.  This is a noteworthy fact because the temperature never got above 20 degrees today.  It was so cold that the snow did not stick together at all.  It was like holding very cold talcum powder.  Try to make a cohesive ball out of talcum powder.  It simply doesn’t work.  This flies in the face of my old believes about snow.  I used to think that snow was snow.  Can’t you always make a snowball with snow?

I have heard that in the Inuit culture, they have many different words for what we simply call “snow.”  After today, this makes sense.

My ultimate objective was to make my first snowman in over 2 decades.  I innocently thought that with all the snow that had fallen overnight, there would be plenty…and there was!  I just couldn’t make it stick together enough to make a simple small snowball!  I quickly learned that I had to take off my (warm) gloves and hold the snowball in my warm-ish hands and blow to bring it up to a temperature that would cause it to stick together.   This only worked for a short time because after a couple of small snowballs for the body of the snowman, my  hands were frozen.  I didn’t know how badly they were frozen until I went inside to use the bathroom.  Suddenly, I felt a great deal of pain in my fingers and a throbbing warmth that felt like my bones had been set on fire.

The final result was a beautiful little “mini” snowman that Naomi named “Frosty.”  We searched the land to find the important accessories that all snow people must have -- the buttons, the arms, the eyes, the pipe, the nose (we imported a raisin for this), and, of course, the hat.  He started out bald and we decided that he had to have a hat, or hair, however the observer wanted to interpret our art piece.  The search for these snow-fashion-accessories was an adventure all by itself.  We knew that we would have to be realistic about the size of our precious snowman.  He would have to be small or we would get frostbite.

Frosty the...

“Frosty” was about 8 inches tall, and he played hockey.  We found him a wonderful hockey stick and a hockey puck that looked more like a soccer ball (that is if you were to calculate the scale of our new friend).  He had precious red berry buttons, eyes made from the pods, which created an “eyelash-y” look.  His hat was made of an evergreen pine bush and Naomi insisted on finishing our creation with a dusting of snow over his head.

The snow feels and looks like the sand at Dillon beach a couple of miles from my house, and it behaves about the same way.  I couldn’t make a “sand ball” with the sand there, but I could try to make a sand castle and that is the very logic that I used to make “Frosty.”  Basically, adding water (in this case, damp heat) you would make the crystals stick together.

While I tediously worked on the little guy, Naomi made snow angels in the front yard.  Given the amount of snow and the powdery consistency, it was far easier to make a snow angel than it was to make our snowman.  She was obviously a veteran.

As the afternoon peaked, the sun sparkled on the snowy ground.  with in weather that is too cold to even contemplate, there was no chance of melting and I knew that “Frosty” would guard their house for a while, given the promised weather forecast.  By tonight, it would dip down to some number with a negative in front of it and the temps forecasted in the coming weekend didn’t bode much better.

To say that I’m glad to be heading home on Monday would be a given.  Yet, this adventure is full of fertile education.  I have learned a lot about snow, things I never knew, and things I thought I did know have been up-ended.  I’ll never think of Iowa in the same way, heck, I’ll never think of snow in the same way.  It makes me want to learn all those Inuit words that describe all the many types of snow that exist and find out how to make a snowman out of each and every kind.

But, most of all, I learned that I never want to waste a good snow.  I'll never pass up the opportunity to make a snowman with a sweet little angel named Naomi, even if it means I get frostbite.

Flat Chest and Big Feet

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Angel ‎"Don't be dismayed at goodbyes. A farewell is necessary before you can meet again. And meeting again, after moments or lifetime, is certain for those who are friends."   ~Richard Bach

It was a small thing, really.  I'm not sure she ever knew what it meant to me.  It was a note passed to me secretly in class that I held onto over the years.  My elementary school years were not happy ones.  Trouble at home cascaded into trouble at school.  While I made good grades, the other kids teased me incessantly, often resulting in a beating at the end of the day or on the playground during recess.  My flat chest, big feet, and buck teeth were the stuff that bullying was made of.  I was the fodder for their fun.  Memories of the daily taunts still bring a gripping feeling in my gut, even these many years later.  Most of the girls in my school were cruel and dishonest, promising friendship but instead bestowed betrayal, duplicity, and deceit.  I had come to believe that friendship had conditions, that I had to be someone else in order to fit in.

So it was when I was 12 that I decided life wasn't worth it.  I couldn't make it another day.  I didn't have the strength, the courage or understanding to know how to stop the daily abuse, so I figured that God would let me start over.  Obviously, I failed in my attempt to end this life because I'm here now to write about it.  Which brings me to the note.

Before text messages and email, there was the plain ol' note written on lined paper, folded in triangular shapes and tucked, ever so neatly in the palm of your hand.  They were passed clandestinely, sometimes intercepted by the teacher.  To our extreme embarrassment, they were often read aloud.  But, this one made it to me safely.  This one simply said, "You are so smart and special.  Thank you for being my friend," signed "Debbie."

As I left childhood behind, I became a connoisseur of many things.  One of those things is friendship.  Looking back, I've had the extreme privilege of redefining friendship and have gathered a treasure-trove of friends along the way.  Now, 5 decades into this life, I've worked hard to leave those childhood bullies behind.  I'll bet that they've grown up themselves and left their own "stuff" behind, most likely forgetting all the vicious tormenting and threats.  People like Debbie taught me how friends should behave and offered the promise of how they give our lives such meaning and joy.  I wouldn't know how to live on this earth without them.

Debbie was one of those optimistic people.  I can still hear her voice, bright with encouragement.  I looked up to her, admired her.  She was an inspiration in so many ways. A loyal friend from the beginning, she never let me down.

Together, we tried out for the school drill team together.  Night after night, we practiced hard.  She spent many nights at my house helping me to learn the routine for try-outs.  I made the team, and she did not.  But, this only made her proud for me.  Yes, I knew she was disappointed, but she never took away my delight with her own feelings.  She only supported me.

Years later, our friendship still blossoming, I watched her become a successful business woman.  She kept her body healthy with dedicated exercise and watching what she ate, always keeping an eye on her weight.  I don't think I ever told her how much I admired her, that the note she sent me years before stayed with me.  Debbie's encouragement throughout these decades were part of my own success.  She was a role model, a bright star in my sky.  As I write this, I realize that she was more than just a friend, she was a beacon.

What I didn't know was that she spent her whole life battling an eating disorder that eventually killed her.  Truthfully, I felt I had let her down.  Her death was a shock I never saw coming.

Debbie is now one of the loveliest angels in heaven with a smile that would light up a village.  I only wish I could have told her how she lit up my life.   

Live Pies Served Up Fresh

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There are Pie People and there are Cake People. My Music Man and I are confirmed Pie People. I simply love pie. I’d rather have pie than cake. It’s not just a matter of taste, it’s a matter of substance. Pies are efficient, pies are practical. Cakes are fanciful. All that icing seems like such a waste. I know there are those who would argue this point, but I'm solidly sure of where I stand.

Tonight in our little corner of the world, the “Academy Awards of Pie” went off without a hitch. The Annual Live Pie Auction served up thick with slices of cheesy Americana. It just doesn’t get any better than this. In our small town, homemade pies are treasures born of hands in dough, fresh fruit from back yards, baked with love, and decorated for those of us who understand the fine art of pies.

27 precious pies were auctioned off to raise money for the local Valley Ford Volunteer Fire Department. Even though it was our neighboring town, Valley Ford, that hosted the event, in our neck of the woods, anything within 10 miles is local. The little schoolhouse filled to the brim, shook with such a ruckus in the back that the auctioneer had to tell us to "Shush" so he could hear the bids. Unaware of all the back room deals, he only sensed the behind the scenes cahootin'. Those of us standing in the back like vultures were eying the pies on the back table, strategizing, how to get our prized pie, knowing there was competition, knowing they were strategizing, too.

 

We had chosen two pies. Each with its own unique winning strategy.

The first pie was ours. Strike fast, strike early. The bidding had yet to really get heated up so we were thrilled when the pumpkin pie went for a mere $17.50. What a deal. We had won The Stolen Pumpkin Pie. The pie maker confessed that the pumpkin used for this pie had been stolen from her neighbors yard…”Well,” she said coyly, “It was almost in my yard, so I took it and decided to use it for a pies.” The neighbor, sitting patiently on the long bench, didn’t seem to mind, seemed to say with his quiet smile, “Yeah, it’s okay, I had enough pumpkins, anyway…” I suspect he received his own pie in exchange for his silence.

As the pies rolled by, the bidding became heated reaching a feverish pitch. At one point, the auctioneer sold a very special ginger pumpkin pie for $115.

This development brought me to the edge of my seat. I had my eye on a three berry pie, a gorgeous “peek-a-boo” cut crust, sprinkled with sugar. This beautiful pie had been saved for the final round. It was one of the only berry pies, rare among all the apple, pear, and pumpkin pies. We were sure to be outbid.

The bidding commenced and after some active volleying, we won the prized berry pie for $50. I don’t think I’ve ever paid that much for a pie before, but it was going for a good cause…and it was beautiful. I was happy, I had won my pie and was looking forward to eating it.

Earlier in the evening, as the auction began, my Music Man met a couple from Alaska on a cross-continental bicycle trip heading for Argentina. They'd just happened upon the Live Pie Auction while on their journey. It turns out they had also been eyeing the triple berry pie. After we won, my Music Man informed me that not only did they have designs on that pie, had lost the bid on it, but the day before had been the guy’s birthday...so, what could we do? We cut the pie in half and presented it to him unflinchingly. We couldn’t let him go without some pie for his birthday. The look on his face was priceless, and it felt good in our hearts, too. Pies are made for sharing.

It’s not about the food, although the food is wonderful - fresh ingredients, together with a priceless home-made, lusciousness. We didn’t come to compete for the pies, provided through the generosity of our neighbors and friends. We came for the sport, for the warmth and to support our local folks, and we came away with so much more - precious moments overflowing with laughter. For some, it was the pumpkin, others, the apples or the pears, a few craved the berries, but we gathered tonight to pay homage to the pies of the season, to celebrate that which is better than cake, an abundance that only pie can deliver. With this year's Live Pie Auction behind us, there was no doubt it was a huge success. We never figured out what a Dead Pie Auction would look like, but we were all relieved they decided to auction off the Live Ones.

“Let them eat cake” only means that they get what’s left over...cake can never compete with a well made pie. For me, I’d eat a pie, crust and all, lick the plate clean and leave the cake behind. I’m deliberate like that.

25 Things

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I wrote this a few years ago and in honor of my Blog-aversary, decided to repost it.

25 Things most people don’t know about me…

1) I’m a sap. I love happy stories. For instance, my Favorite Story of the Century has got to be  Chesley “Sully” Sullenberger landing that airplane on the Hudson River. It makes me all goose-pimply and teary-eyed every time I hear about it. Thankfully, this happy story was all over the media which seems to be full of bad news every single day.

2) I am actually a cat. I like stalking and pouncing, freedom and fish. Sometimes, I feel like I’ve lived several lives already within this one and that there are several more to come…our cat, Harley Moon, is my guru.

3) I like cemeteries. A lot. They’ve always enchanted me.

4) Insects don’t “bug” me. I’ve been the official “Spider Extractor” ever since Girl Scout camp when the latrines were held hostage by a roaming band of Daddy Long-legs. Now rats are another story. I’ve held a grudge against those creatures since reading Stephen King’s short story, “Night Shift” on a Greyhound bus while in college a couple of decades ago.

5) I don’t have the “shoe gene” that most women claim to have. I own relatively few shoes. I really didn’t get the whole shoe-thing until my daughter enlightened me a few years ago. I’ve become something of a voyeur since then. I love looking at them, but have trouble wearing anything with a high heel due to excrutiating pain that seems to penetrate my whole body. I like my cowboy boots better.

6) Birds fascinate me. If I could come back to earth in another life, it would be as a bird. Most fascinating bird: hummingbirds, amazing creatures that defy all natural laws of physics.

7) The first car I ever drove was an Alfa Romeo at age 13 on a Dallas highway at midnight.

8) I was conceived on my parents’ honeymoon in Mexico after a heavy-duty “Margarita” bender and as Hurricane Carla was making its way to the coast of Texas/Mexico. It was classified as a Cat 5 cyclone which hit land as a Cat 4, and at that time was the second strongest storm to hit the US in the 20th century. Perhaps that accounts for my temperament.

9) I was the First Born Son my father wanted so badly. The story goes that my parents were told by the doctor that I was a boy. They had a name all picked out (hint: I was to be a “junior”). When I finally popped out, my surprised parents took 3 weeks to figure out what to name me. I was told the choices were “Margarita” (see #7 above), and “Deborah” (after Debbie Reynolds, my mom’s favorite actress and the prophetess in the Old Testament, my dad’s favorite book). I think my Southern Baptist grandmother had a hand in the final pick.

10) I am Ambidextrous. I can write with both hands. I can read upside down. I can write backwards. I can also tie a cherry stem with my tongue in less than minute.

11) I deeply regret that I never learned to do cartwheels.

12) I’ve gone skydiving once and only once. It was exhilerating and frightening all at the same time…and on my list of “Things I Have Done and Don’t Need to Do Again.”

13) I am always amazed at my wonderful friends. When I look back at my life (hopefully as a healthy and active centenarian with all my mental faculties), I will still be in awe of the people I have loved and who love me. I have THE most talented, creative, loving, generous, interesting, and fun friends on earth! I would give any of them one of my kidneys if they needed it!

14) The 2 Great Loves in my life are my daughter and my husband. Love is still a surprising phenomenon. It truly has the power to transform lives and people and I’ve been a witness to many miracles. I’ve learned never to second-guess its power. I never thought I would have kids, but my daughter’s birth taught me about true unconditional love. I also thought I had given up on marriage after too many painful and foolish catastrophes, but My Music Man brought me hope and has taught me more about patience and kindness, and how loving another human being with such depth and passion doesn’t have to be painful. He also welcomed us into his family and community with generous and open arms. I hope we continue making our friends sick until we both drop!

15) Music is God’s voice drifting down and touching our human souls. What else can I say? It’s my favorite thing in the world.

16) My second favorite thing is Laughter. A baby’s laughter brings ecstacy to my ears. Of the 2 Faces of Drama, I would rather spend my time on the “Comedy” side of the face…

17) Scariest accident of my life: I was 6 years old and playing “Monsters and Dragonslayers” with my brother and other childhood friends. I vaguely remember I was the Monster (complete with a paper bag over my head) and one of the Dragonslayers (equipped with his trusty magical pencil-sword) poked me in the eye with the sword, I mean pencil. Almost turned me into a Cyclops. Missed my eye by centimeters, but made me aware of the dangers of being the Monster.

18) I adore ice cream, but don’t like cake. And I really don’t like the icing on cake. I scrape it off and leave it on the plate, or try to give it away to the nearest sugar-holic. However, I have a well-known pie fetish. I love all kinds of pie, especially berry pie. But apple pie is pretty darn good too. Whoever invented pie should have something big and important (like a stadium or a city) named after them. Also, I think ice cream would solve all the world’s problems, especially war. Can you imagine sitting across from an enemy eating ice cream and not smiling? It stops people from crying, too.

19) I’m afraid of dying. Not the dying part where you get sick and mumble things to some unseen presence, but the actual end of this lifetime. I think I am afraid that I’ll miss the people and events here on earth when I go on to whatever comes after this, which I’m sure will be wonderful. Plus, I’m so curious to see how it will all turn out. I just don’t think I’ll ever be ready to leave this life, so I want to live to be 100 years old, just so I can have a century of memories. Maybe I’m a “life-aholic.” Is there a 12-Step Program for that?

20) My favorite cartoon character is Pepe Le Pew. I adore his passion and optimism. I also think he is handsome…for a skunk.

21) I think my biggest pet peeve involves “Consensual Crimes” – those things that are illegal that don’t involve another person, or where there are consenting adults involved. Like prostitution. I know, this is a thorny issue, but I just don’t think it should be illegal. Ever. Anywhere. Regulated, yes. Illegal, no. What business is it of mine what 2 (or more) people do — and for how much – behind closed doors? Also, marijuana shouldn’t be illegal, either. It’s nuts. Tobacco is legal and pot is not. Strange world we live in, indeed. There’s a whole list of these, but you get the picture.

22) On that note, I think I would make a wonderful Global Dictator. If I ruled the world, then every road would have a safe bike lane. Education would be free. Euthanasia would be legal for humans, not just our pets! Criminals would have to repay their crimes by serving mankind in some way. I have many more of these but I have to keep them secret in case I ever actually hold this office.

23) I truly love my home here in Tomales. It is my Heaven on Earth. And if we can create what we want in heaven, then mine will look like this.

24) My mind thinks in pictures and stories, which is really annoying when I have to answer a simple question.

25) I have a horrible fear of enclosed spaces, like caves and crowded busses. Seriously. I don’t like elevators. I don’t like the idea of being in a coffin when I die. My secret fear is being buried alive. When I watch films where this happens, I am truly horrified and have to close my eyes. I feel the fear down into my bones. I also don’t like crowds and the idea of being crushed by the masses makes my skin crawl.

Now, I’d love it if you would share some of yours with me…

I’ll Buy a Fantasy for $10, Please: Lady Luck Beckons

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Wine in the Making Last Saturday night we celebrated the 50th birthday of a new friend.  We’re connected to each other because he lived next door to one of my close girlfriends.  She eventually moved away, but still keeps in touch.  Good neighbors are special.  I’ve been lucky enough throughout my life to have a large collection of them.  We chat over the fence, share meals, discuss local issues, and know the generalities of each others’ lives.  I appreciate privacy, but because we share a rather intimate space, rely upon certain combined resources, and breathe the same air, we often depend on one another.

As the party blossomed, several of us chatted together about the wine business.  Living in the Northern California wine country means that you can’t throw a rock and not hit a vintner, or someone directly connected to the industry.  They joked with each other that winemaking would make you poor.  You die happy, but spend all your money in the process.  That’s when the subject of the most recent lottery frenzy came up and I confessed that I’d actually fantasized about how I would spend the money.  Everyone nodded.  Of course, they said, we have all had those fantasies.

Generally, I don’t play the lottery.  I don’t go to Vegas, either.  I just don’t enjoy leaving the fate of my money to a fragile marriage of chance and my own ignorance of how to play the game.  Lady Luck and I have never been friendly.  So, I keep my distance and let her break other hearts.

This time I chose to buy a ticket.  And, honestly, I felt terrible about it.  It was almost an obsessive thing.  But, the Lady Herself had winked at me and said, go on, it’s your turn to feel unbelievably rich.  Such a seductress...

I’ve heard all the discussions about having a better chance of getting hit by lightning.  It could be said that you’d have a better chance of getting hit by lightning twice.  I’m sure that those unfortunate folks who’ve actually been hit by lightning twice would agree that it’s pretty much an impossible statistic.  But, who develops these statistics and should we believe them?

So, I finally bought a ticket at the very last-minute.  My car made its way to the local convenience store and ejected me into the store.  It took me a while to actually buy the ticket because I had to thoroughly read the instructions, interview a few starry-eyed patrons, and used one of my “phone a friend” cards.  There were several different lottery products to choose from.  How did I know which one the Lady wanted me to play?  Once I found the Big One, the tiny red writing on the back provided detailed, but ambiguous instructions on how to mark the form.  It was all very stressful.

Driving home with my shiny new ticket, the fantasies began to swirl.  In my head, I envisioned myself as the winner.  Pictures flashed as I imagined I'd won a jackpot of historical proportions.  What would I do next?  Would I scream?  Cry?  Hide?  By the time I arrived home, I had composed a list of things I would do with the money, enjoying the impact the windfall would have on family, friends, and neighbors.  The most amazing thing was that I could easily spend every single penny in a very short amount of time.

Back at the party, one of my party mates said, “Well, it’s a cheap fantasy anyway, you know?  It doesn’t cost that much and the fantasies themselves are priceless.  Heck, my bar tab tonight will be several times more than a measly lottery ticket.  Think of it as a transfer of wealth.  We’re all basically buying a chance to dream.”

Many might argue that you can dream without the ticket.  But, we all agreed as we stood together revisiting our wildest fantasies that it would be like going to the front of a carnival and never crossing through the gate to ride the roller coaster.  You can imagine how it feels, but it’s not like actually standing in line ripe with anticipation.

Lady Luck beckons to us like a siren and delivers a fantasy in return.  She enjoys that lustful look in our eyes and fans the fire with promises of fortune and fame.  As we listen to her song, enticing as it may be, we should remember what happens to sailors blinded to the rocks below.  They go down with their ship.

So, here's what I'd like to know:  Did you go on an adventure with the Lady on your own fantasy trip?  Where did she take you this time?

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Wow, salsa, peppers and chicken all baked up together? This I had to try…as always, we mixed it up a bit and made it our own, but here it is, beware: it's spicy. 

I’m always looking for tasty ways to impress my family and friends. These days we're eating out less often, but don’t want to give up the communion that sharing meals with loved ones offers. Recently, I’ve discovered that focusing on simple dishes utilizing the oven instead of the stove top provides us with the most freedom to enjoy our guests. For a recipe to be considered Guest Worthy, it has to include the following components (besides being delicious):

  1. Prep happens before guests arrive, maximizing the “experience” by eliminating distractions.
  2. The Oven does all or most of the work (as opposed to managing the intricacies of the stove top.
  3. The dish is a balanced meal – include veggies and meat.
  4. Great for leftovers.

My Music Man and I made this together last night for some low-key entertaining with some close friends. After the first helping, he looked at me, smiled and nodded. No other words were necessary. This one made the cut. His only request was that next time we used thighs instead of breasts. We call this...

SAUCY RED HEN

Prep Time:
  20 Min

Cook Time:  
45 Min

Ready In:
  1 Hr 5 Min

Recipe Yields 6 servings

Ingredients

  • 5-6 (about 4-5 lbs.) boneless, skinless chicken breast halves
  • 2 tablespoons olive oil
  • 1 large onion, chopped
  • 2 celery stalks, chopped
  • 4 fresh Serrano peppers, minced
  • 1 fresh Jalapeno pepper, minced
  •  4 garlic cloves, pressed
  • 4 carrots, grated
  • 3 cups sliced mushrooms
  • 1 large (28 ounce) can diced tomatoes, undrained
  • 1 ½ cup chicken broth
  • 2 cups uncooked long grain rice
  • 1 large lime, squeezed
  • 1 teaspoon chili powder
  • 1/8 teaspoon ground cinnamon
  • 1/8 teaspoon ground cumin
  • 1/8 teaspoon pepper
  • Salt to taste
  • 1 cup salsa
  • 1 cup shredded Cheddar cheese
  • 1 (2.25 ounce) can sliced ripe olives, drained

Directions

In a large skillet, brown chicken in olive oil for 2-3 minutes on each side. Remove and keep warm. In the same skillet, sauté the onion, celery, peppers and garlic. Add mushrooms. Cook until tender. Stir in the tomatoes, water, rice, broth and seasonings. Bring to a boil. Pour into a large greased baking dish; add carrots, stir in lime juice, top with chicken.

Cover and bake at 325 degrees F for 45-50 minutes or until rice is tender. Uncover; spoon salsa over chicken and sprinkle with cheese. Bake 5 minutes longer  to melt the cheese. Garnish with olives.